I'm starting to realize how quickly my time here is drawing to a close. I only have 5.5 weeks until I head to Australia, then back home. It has felt so normal to be here during this time. It makes me wonder--will it feel normal to be back in the U.S., or will I feel a bit out of place? Although it was really good to be back home for the two years between my Thailand adventures, I never really felt like I truly settled in or that I was even supposed to. I certainly don't want to take this time I'm back home for granted, though, because I don't know how long after graduation I'll actually be in the country.
I've never really felt like I was supposed to live in the U.S. long-term. It's funny; in some ways, I've felt more at home in a foreign culture than in my home culture. I look forward with anticipation to what God has in the future. With graduation comes a whole new plethora of possibilities... which door will I choose? Where will He lead? I pray that He guides me as clearly as He has up until this point. He made it clear I'm supposed to be here in Thailand for this semester. He made it clear that He brought Sumu into my life for a reason. He made it clear that I should go to Australia in May, and He's made it clear that I am to complete this degree through LCSC. I have no reason to believe that He will not bring clarity in this next phase of life in His perfect timing.
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Your blog reminds me about my first time back in the states after being in Niger, Africa for two years. I was with another Peace Corps friend when we flew into New York. It was so hectic and I had no idea where I was suppose to go. My friend grabbed me by the arms, looked me straight in the eyes and said, "Chan, calm down, get a hold of yourself, everyone hear speaks English, we're home." I wanted to kiss the ground. :)
How lucky you are to be heading to Australia. Sounds like fun and I can see you've had many opportunities in your life to travel. That's great!
I agree with you Steph..your time back home was different. I could see you weren't really engaged here, didn't quite know where you belonged. I don't think your heart is in the states.
As a mom, this was a letting go time for me. I am happy for where the Lord takes you and that you listen to the Lord. I am happy Sumu is in your life and happy about you finishing your degree.
This scripture just came to mind: Psalm 1:3 "And he shall be like a tree planted by the rivers of water, that bringeth forth his fruit in his season; his leaf also shall not wither; and whatever he doeth shall prosper."
Psalm 92:13 "Those that be planted in the house of the Lord shall flourish in the courts of our God."
Bless you sweet thing, God will show you the way.
Love, Mom
I admire the love your family has for the Lord, the trust and the faith you've placed in Him shines. Thank you for sharing!
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